Lyrics

CAN'T LET IT SHOW

Don't let God find out,

If he knows my dreams, he'll take them away;

I pretend to want something different 

And hope it balances out someday.

 

Can't let it show,

Can't let them know how I feel,

Can't let these feelings grow,

Can't let anyone find out about me,

Shut it down now!

 

Fears must be kept secret,

They're inconvenient; they cause me pain;

I pretend to be like others,

Hide inside, but always feel the blame.

 

But that's not how it works, 

Cause God wants the best for me,

My fears get in the way,

If I let it go and let him work I'll see...

 

Time to let it show

And let them know how I feel,

And let these feelings grow,

And let everyone find out about me,

Can't shut it down now!

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones
 

BETTER THAN THIS

Heard a story 'bout a man,

Received a medal from a war; 

But it was forty years late,

Oh, can't we do better than this!

Heard a story 'bout a family

Being loaded on a train,

'Cause they wore a gold star,

Oh, can't we do better than this?

 

No, there's always a price to be paid

When human nature gets in the way;

Why can't we right all these wrongs?

When will we sing freedom's song?

 

Heard a story 'bout a man,

Led a lot of men to freedom;

But, in the end, they all died;

Oh, can't we do better than this!

Heard a story 'bout some people

Led a grand revolution,

But, in the end, it was corrupted,

Can't we do better than this?

 

Heard a story 'bout a man,

Heard he came to set the captives free;

And he came to heal the sick,

Oh, he couldn't do better than this!

When they nailed him to a cross,

He cried, "Father, please forgive them!"

'Cause he came to bear their sins,

Oh, he couldn't do better than this!

 

'Cause there was always a price we had to pay,

'Cause our human nature got in the way;

Only he could right all these wrongs,

Only through him could we sing freedom's song.

 

Heard a story 'bout a man,

He was punished for the wrongs I've done,

Then he rose from the dead;

No one could do better than this!

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones

RIGHT NOW

Things just don't feel right, right now,

But I'm trying to get it together somehow,

Though restless fears are haunting me

And troubling thoughts are taunting me,

Giving up is something I won't allow.

 

I didn't think I'd have these doubts right now;

I thought I'd be much better by now;

But I guess nothing is certain,

These expectations are a burden;

They only make life harder anyhow...

 

'Cause I keep having to make adjustments

And questioning all I do,

 I never know if I'm getting it right;

I need to let go and start leaning more on you...

 

The way to have a better life is clear;

The problem isn't that I didn't hear;

The problem is the living

And learning to be more giving,

Letting go of so much I hold dear.

 

I'm gonna have to change my life now,

Right now...

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones

TOUCH OF A BUTTERFLY

I scarcely dare to breathe

Lest she leave,

I know it won't be long anyway; 

Each touch feels like gold in my hand,

Stolen, like the touch of a butterfly.

 

I dare not trespass to ask for more

For fear she'll fly away sooner

And I lose the little I have left;

Don't cling, wouldn't think of it

To a butterfly;

This natural thing must be

For a butterfly.

 

The best that I can do,

Then let go...

 

Tears, my tears,

And pray for the touch of a butterfly

I pray for the touch of a butterfly.

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones

HEARTBREAK

There's a heartbreak I cannot face,

You won't see tears on my face;

Though it's a pain I can't erase,

I must keep up with life's pace;

'Cause I don't know if there's anyone I can tell;

I must keep it locked inside this shell.

 

And I must hide inside, 

Though I feel so numb, like part of me died.

 

Can you reach me here?

Can you calm my fears?

Will it be enough to let it go?

I don't know if I trust;

It's not that I don't want to,

It's just-

 

There's so much at risk, 

So much I don't know,

So much at risk,

So much I don't know.

 

So this heartbreak remains my own,

'Til I find the courage to make it known

And let it go...

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones

LET THE STORM RAGE

I was searching for something to change,

Not realizing I had to start;

Don't know why it seemed so strange

When I experienced a change of heart.

And it's true what they say:

To forgive sets a prisoner free,

Only to realize that the captive was me...

 

And it's time to leave my fantasies,

And move on to a new stage;

I can't control what happens now;

The best that I can do is set my anchor

And let the storm rage.

 

Navigating unfamiliar seas

Challenged me like nothing before,

But it drove me to my knees

And it opened many new doors.

And it's true what they say:

Resentment is a poisonous lie;

And the one who drinks will be the one who will die.

 

This life I've chosen is a wild one,

And it takes all the courage I have,

But I know at the end that I'll find joy

If I hang on, though the tempest rage...

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones

AFTER THE PARTY

Exiting into a storm,

I find myself wedged in a place too tight to escape;

I hate asking for help, but must have assistance 

To leave the driveway.

 

My mind regresses automatically

To all of my words,

As I compare myself to everyone there;

I cannot halt this useless exercise.

 

Overcome by regret because of the raw hurt

I allowed into the room

Like a bomb,

I wanted to hide from the shame;

So I ran from the arms that were holding me,

I ran from the arms that were holding me.

 

Now I slowly push forward 

Into a place I no longer recognize,

As rain forms a tunnel around me and lightning splits the sky;

But I know this road will lead me home,

I know this road will lead me home.

 

(c) Copyright 2019 Elizabeth M. Jones