Your price

I wrote recovery when I first started the whole journey. The song specifically expresses my need to stop worrying so much about what others thought or how uncomfortable it might be for them to watch the process, my realization that I didn't have to be perfect or pretend to be something I wasn't, and how I learned it was okay to ask for help when I needed it.

Lyrics

Going about my life like I used to do,
Never facing the pain I was going through,
I thought I had it together: my life was in control.
But the pain was deep inside,
no matter how much I denied it was so.

So many things about me I despised,
But I'd have to learn to live with them I surmised.
No one could know the real me: I couldn't take the risk;
But now and then I'd get a view
of what God only knew I'd missed.

Now I don't care what you think of me;
I'm in recovery.
Don't feel bad if you see my pain;
I am recovering.
I must face the pain sometime if I wanna climb to recovery;
And it's so hard sometimes.
But I'm recovering.

I finally found the courage to make a change,
To ask for the help I needed to rearrange.
The Lord is helping me make it,
So don't feel bad for me.
But I might need to call on you
for strength to see me through the changes.

Now I don't care what you think of me...

I don't have to be the person I thought I was;
God doesn't want a counterfeit of me because
He made me like I am for a reason;
He can use me when I'm weak.
It's okay to fall sometimes
as long as I climb back towards recovery.

So I don't care what you think of me...

It's okay to fall sometimes as long as I climb back towards recovery.
Recovery...thank God I'm in recovery.